Time and time again I get surprised by our God. It’s kinda ridiculous.
I know that He’s faithful. If anything, my experience wrestling with Him has shown that. From trusting Him with raising support for missions trips, to job opportunities, to even relationships, the LORD has shown me over and over that He knows what He’s doing, and that there’s nothing for me to be anxious about or to stress out about.
So why can’t I seem to grasp that reality in current circumstances?
Just yesterday I kinda entered a slight panic mode. I have a wedding to film this weekend, and the wedding coordinator only contacted me yesterday with a request to see my proof of insurance for my business: the venue required this. Now I’m not exactly a registered business: I film things on the side, typically under the table. I really have no idea how to turn my videography side job into a more legitimate business… Perhaps that’s something I should seriously consider do now? Anyway, I don’t have insurance for my business. And with only a few days out before this wedding, how was I supposed to go about getting insured?
I explained my situation to the wedding coordinator, who suggested this one group that provides special event insurance, as a one-time deal. That’s a cool idea, but when I got a quote, I realized that, relative to my budget, was a bit too expensive for me to handle. This wouldn’t have been a problem if I got notice of this a few weeks ago (to account in my expenses), but with three days ago, what could I do? I got back to the wedding coordinator saying that this was not an expected cost, and if there were other options. She said she’d contact the venue for other options, and she’d also ask the bride if there could be a financial arrangement in my favor on her behalf.
I went to bed that night, still anxious, but a little relieved that there could potentially be something done for me.
I wake up this morning. It’s pay day at my day job, so my usual paycheck was accounted for in my bank account. That’s good.
But then something really unexpected was on the next line: an extra large sum of money from my job. What the. Where did that come from? My heart skipped a beat. I realized that after our company got acquired, there was a bonus available to me. I heard about my co-workers who were looking forward to a bonus, but I didn’t think of that for me: I’m a part-time employee, and they’re all full-time. But the proof was there on my bank statement: I had a bonus, too.
Wow, so I could afford that special event insurance then, after all!
But God wasn’t done.
I got an email from the wedding coordinator today saying that there was simply a release form I could sign for the venue, competing circumventing the need for insurance!
Problem solved.
And I reflect on all this and I realize that I have access to a great, loving, graceful, surprising God because of Jesus Christ. He knows what I need at just the right time. He knows what’s up. And He won’t relent for my heart, attention, devotion, and life. He is good. So good.
